AkiroAlpha

I'm not sure whats wrong with me anymore.  I haven't submitted any drawings in a while all i've done is practice.  Although even my practice drawings all I see is myself wavering,  I been so depressed and I can't understand why I can't rid myself of it.  All I see in my drawings, in my reflection is just failure. BUT WHY?!  I desire to be excellent just like my peers and artists that I look up to but all I see in me is just a fleeting dream.  I want to cry but I can't.  I end up hating myself even more for losing control of my emotion.  Its just me in a room.  I don't have friends at all.  I struggle to socialize. My self hatred and lonelines

Hopefully whomever reads this is having a most excellent summer!  As for me I am enjoying it too but I having been having some trouble as of late.  I continue to practice my drawings and i have improved but I am always carrying this feeling of sadness in me.   I feel inferior, I feel like art is not good enough at all.  I shouldn't feel this way I know that. that despair is something I have been battling with for awhile  hence these feelings lead me to doubt and not submitting in quite awhile.  I am sorry,  being down in the dumps is something people don't want hear.  I felt like venting.  That aside I hope you all have a excellent day! :D